I’ve been struggling. A lot. A whole lot. I don’t even know how to say it properly. I am in pain — stupid, ridiculous, emotional pain that makes no sense and has no discernable roots in reality. Instead, it is the kind of pain that starts in the brain. Maybe it’s chemistry. Hormones. Norepinephrine and Serotonin. I don’t know. I just feel the weight, the hurt, and the confusion.

I keep telling myself that tomorrow will be better, that I will, “Be okay”, some other time. I don’t believe a word of it. But still, I continue because I have no other choice, for now.

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